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I always thought it was my fault, but I'm not so sure though.

For the longest time, I struggle to make any friends. I always thought it was a "me" thing. That I was too weird or not accepted by normal standards. I don't go "sussy" or "omg this is so wholesome owo" or anything similar, and if I did it, was for a joke. I always felt like I didn't belong because I don't talk like everyone else, or dress like everyone else, or interested in every new trend like everyone else.

I just stopped trying to change myself to fit in so other strangers to like me. If they think I'm boring because I don't care about new trends and random memes, then that's too bad. Tough shit. I want to care about myself for once and not worry so much about the thoughts from other people.

I don't understand kinning, DNIs(for the most part), twitter as a website(or most social media in general), stanning, and stuff like that. It's harder for me to relate to anyone if I can't understand some of these concepts, and even if I did, I don't care for them. These are not things I do and I don't want to be friends with people I don't understand.

Then, people would think "you're an insensitive asshole! people do these things because it's their life and they can do whatever they want!" and blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda. That's not even the point. I just feel so detached from everyone and can't relate to anyone because everyone does things I don't understand or care.

So, at the end of the day, I feel like I shouldn't care much about it anymore. It only brings me stress and nothing more. I don't want to explain why I'm writing this because it'll get too personal, and I don't like to get too personal online(even though this is on my personal blog, it's still online nonetheless). It's just not a very smart idea.